Extraordinary!

So, I grew up always wanting more, dreaming and writing in my diaries of who I'd be-so 

much bigger and bolder than  my life was at the time.  Extraordinary....the ordinary life was 

not for me. I dreamed of being a ballerina, speaking different languages, living somewhere 

different...somewhere out of the ordinary. Something that wasn't just the norm, doing 

something not EVERYONE did, living somewhere not everyone lived...not normal. Not 

in a weird, like my parents. Just in a, well in an extraordinary way. I have now come to that 

point in my  life where I would be doing this...but I'm not, nothing every happened. Don't 

get me wrong  I've had some neat experiences but I'm 32 and I'm just doing 

normal...ordinary. Seems like every day is the same. I remember thinking how I would have 

this big perfect house, with nice cars. I just feel like my life does not match my vision in my 

mind. This is not me! Screams a voice in my head.  Perhaps 

there is a lesson in there somewhere, something profound that I'm supposed to learn like 

the basis of life is not what you've done it's who you've worshipped or glorified, it's not that 

I should be extraordinary but that He is. While profound not necessarily lessons I've taken 

to heart...maybe I should but then is letting go of the dreams I've had, things I desired..is it 

time to let go? Is that giving up hope or just a redirection in purpose or worship? Any 

thoughts?




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